And life goes on…

Walking the life wasn’t soothing her anymore and sadness played their chords;
She survived many storms though but pains wrecked her at last.
Just before giving up her trust she paused a while in spite of being in darkness.
Recollecting the seasons wrapped in hard and soft those were gentle and kind some time but left scars behind.
Considered now she stands to view how strong she has grown in her own shadows that made her resilient from her tests of life.
She now understood life paradigms though albeit.
She now sees that her darkness as cruel, unbearable, unkind as it seemed  always, restricted never  in contributing to all that made her complete and whole.
Thus, she now stands amidst of storms closing her eyes whispers thank you, to the dark to the light, to every tiny little things that involved in her being.
She picks her broken pieces collages them to shape in new.
She wears a smile as she writes a note to self “And life goes on…”
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Inderjit Kaur

Inderjit Kaur

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Transitions :- Walks of life

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Like water we need to keep flowing.
I learnt long before that whatever I am experiencing as a turmoil is the only result of my negative addiction. Indeed, it is very easy access for our thoughts, to be penetrative and slip into various forms of negativity. I was depressed witnessing life getting worse day by day into violence, abuses, physical, and mental tortures but I could hardly do anything. May be because it is rooted at very early age as a girl child that one has to accept, adapt, destiny to whatever it hurls after marriage. When I allowed myself to be submerged in these life draining negative thoughts, I actually left no room for peace it was self-surrender. And barely I thought more about myself now existing just was able to survive to safe guard marriage and the social stigma accepting my fate and started to continue tolerating the chaos that killed me millions of time but the smiles and the spark of life in the eyes of my kids kept me going. 
I began to take everything for granted and consider life as an easy flow. All the love and consideration is often replaced with anger that adds frustrating. At one time, the circumstances shattered me into millions of pieces and eventually led my spirit to get entangled in questions and I started to decay in this pool of depression. We do often face dilemmas sometimes unsure what will be the next move. We do get stuck in dire situations and we just are unable to figure out what next. And life gets more complex more difficult. That’s the most surprising package of life’s equations. Reoccurrence of uncertainties around you, makes you more vulnerable and pushing us into darkness and you witness yourself anchored alone at the shore of negative influences. You start losing interest in life and are not sure how long can you sustain. Saturated with dark fears, your enthusiasm fades away eventually, forcing you to be deeply unhappy.
Suffering escalates more if you’re surrounded by negative people and when nothing seems to work. I traced the negatives around me tried to capsize me in the unexplained segments of the worries.  For me worries, negative thoughts and negative people at the same time are just energy drainers. They want you to believe and perceive their perceptions. This makes you to surrender deep in depressions, thus leaving no scopes of evolution.
You got to find out the root. I started to explore myself and was keen to understand the meaning of my life and what was my purpose here. And as I began to reinvent myself in this journey I was able to search the simple meaning to the word “CHANGE” and thus I kept figuring out more and more meaning and thrived hard to seek the answer, I needed to start exploring the events, which were left behind on the last turn that I crossed I made up my mind to overcome all my setbacks and that I won’t dwell in yesterday, since it did not left behind anything to be looked upon. What ever I had was with me, was today and I decided to look upon life with altogether new perspectives. Yes, I immediately figured out the best answer and that was, “BEING POSITIVE.”

The best word of positive life was thus embossed on my soul forever I was successful to write the very positive word 
‘YES I CAN’ into my living diary, that was life and that’s how, I framed it relating as an attitude everyone should possess and the word is ‘START’. “To make a change, we need to start with a seed called desire”
When applied, I drew an affirmative conclusion regarding opportunities. We got to grow through them intentionally in positive perception, recognizing the purposes and the cause.
I had to finally decide as I figured out that life could get even worse. I started studying the concept of being positive more closely. I started with a small change initially and the first thought I choose was to ignore immediate decisions for the troubled issues. I stayed calm, I learned to be more in patience by now and this worked  effectively and I started trying my best to give time to myself before any decisions or reactions.  Positive thinking is not done overnight; it takes time.
I began reading all I could find on being positive – Books, web, newspaper articles. It is evident that yes some words do make an impact and that’s what exactly happened. Sceptical at first, finally I got its influence overtaking all my sheltered concepts. I began with a new routine added in my stressed life and that was music.
I kept myself occupied with some soft music that helped me not only de-stress, but I could feel the changes.
I began to seek better options in all the problems that once were pretending that they would never get resolved.
Using this positive concept as a tool, I started the change that I was seeking from past two decades and I did manage to walk my life and was very certain that I am going to somehow get healed. Healing from a stressed life did not happen overnight and all of sudden. Yes, it took interminably long, but it happened. In order to be facing the life tragedies one has to harness the unique and irreplaceable quality of self believe, one must always be well prepared to face the unexpected with more confidence and optimism.
It is hard but not impossible a start, a begin is all that is required to straighten the crooked thinking sometimes.
And thus the walks in transitions would reflect the very true purpose of life..

Keep smiling keep shining!

Inderjit Kaur

Silent winds

  Thought ☆
In thoughts of  thee
Like Ambience in rain
Like Spring over desserts
Like essence of  pain
Like warmth to the winter
Like swirling of
Unsettled winds
Among the sand dunes
Searching for
Quench in within….
tracing the curves
Alone in memoirs
Search for thee
Words those were
Silently unfolded
So strange though. …..
Thoughts of thee
Like Ambience in rain. ……